day 2 of my substance free holiday

Well it's the end of day two in my substance free holiday and the mood swings have already started but i expected them too. I ended up sleeping most of today so that was alright but i have on more then a couple of occasions bitten my mum's head off over nothing but she know's that and expects it and she knows that I love her dearly and its just the illegal things coming out of my system that are making me act like a spoilt brat but ohh well thats what you get when you take these things nasty little come downs when you take yourself as far away from it as possible.

Today was pretty lack luster slept most of the day, watched a nice big tunderstorm with hail come over was pretty darn funky, not camp just funky, then cooked myself some of my gaybo famous pancakes drizzled in maple syrup, yum yum yum.

I decided that it was high time I went through my room and was cleaning out my drawers in which i found a lot of the clothes I had wanted to wear damn it lol when out falls a picture of my ex, ashley, god i loved that boy tho it was only a love that lasted 3 weeks but he was the first ever guy that had ever taken an interest in my and he was stunning well i thought he was others didn't but you can decide for yourselves and also have a look what i looked like when i was 18...God i looked so young and naive don't I, look at me now I'm a queen that will stand up for himself swears like crazy and can hold his substances with some of the best well I think I can and that's all that counts. Moving on from there i also found a few other things that made me sit down and go wow look at how far I've come with my life and what I have achieved. The next thing i found was a newspaper clipping my mum took for me of a really good friend of mine from high school getting married to her high school sweet heart, pictured below. Plus her hubby is a bit of a spunk as well.


T was a true friend, she knew I was gay before I had even realised it myself and was just waiting for the time when I finally did realise it that she stepped forward and showed her true self a loving caring person who had all the time in the world for me. So i decided to check the local phone book to see if i could find them. It wasn't hard all i had to do was find the first B & T and there they were so on the phone i hopped and ended up chatting to her for like 20 minutes which was good cause we haven't seen each other in nearly 3 years and we are having a mini school reunion on Thursday with a few other of our friends going to see Harry Potter, but it also made me realise are they still the same people that I knew in High School. T & B have a 2 year old son and another of my friends has a 6 month old boy. I know that I have changed and i know its for the better but have i changed so much that we can't seem to click T and I will always be friends but the rest i don't know... anyways that is enough for tonight, farewell all take care have fun be safe love you all.

Mwah :-)